When your time with God shifts
From asking for needs to be filled
Into feeling grateful for all of Life,
You have discovered true Prayer.
Hello my loving friends, I know I have no written to much in this blog, but sometimes I am in an absorption mood. I am taking all in, and while it sinks in, does not come out. A lot of transformations have come to my life since I wrote last in this blog. It always fascinates me how my life is being weaved. Some say that I am the one doing the weaving, others say that the Supreme is doing the weaving. I am not sure who is doing it, maybe me and the Supreme together are doing the weaving. This sounds the most appealing approach to me since it aloud the freedom to choose and the recognition of something greater than me to make it all work.
I feel like in my life I am collecting pearls for this magnificent necklace that is my life. While every pearl in it is important, the pearls that I am getting lately are far better than any other pearl in this necklace. So many beautiful people are coming into my life, so many amazing books, movies, and experiences that each not only are beautiful but they come with the power of transformation.
My lovely friend, Barbara, asked me the other day, Do you think that these pearls were always there and I you didn’t see them?, or they are really now coming into your life?. To tell you the truth, I don’t know the answer. Those who are more awake than me suggest that yes, they have been all alone there. Now I am recognizing it, and I can even see their transformative power. So, it is possible that a simple change in our vision, a change in our outlook can reveal what it has been there all along.
In the last few month, a constant message have been inundating me through so many diverse sources, a shaman in Mexico, a French healer, a controversial guru, an amazing friend, a child, a scientist. Even though all them may have very little in common, they all seem to be carrying the same message: “stop searching outside, it is all within”; “you are an intrinsic part or a creator of the manifestations that surround you”.
The prayer above that came to me today inspired me to write again. How many times we reach God for fulfilling our dreams and desires? Many times his divine love grants us that wish, then we feel that there is still something missing, so a new wish list is presented to God.
This reminds me of a realization I had the other day on my walk on the beach. I realized that I can simple chose to be happy and satisfy right now. So if I chose to be satisfy today with all that I have or I don’t have, then I can always be satisfied and happy. If I chose not to be satisfied and happy right now, then satisfaction will never reach my heart. Something will always be missing. Regardless of what I get or don’t get. It is simple a decision we have to make. I choose to be satisfied and happy today. (Remind me if I forget 
Today I feel inspired to share another realization I had while hiking. This same feeling happened twice, both during a hike. The first time I was in a hike with the local Buddhist monk for world peace. I went with my friend Kenny. The hike began witha large group of beautiful people; up the hill we went. Love and Peace was breath not only by the beautiful nature around us, but also by the wonderful people that took part of the world peace hike. After some time we got to an amazing spot that overlooked the ocean and wonderful the Santa Barbara beaches. There were flowers blooming everywhere, and the sun shining on the impressive ocean was creating a spectacular view. In that spot there was a wonderful tree that gave us the perfect shelter. While the group continued with the hike passing the spot, I was however very tempted to stay in that place enjoy the view and wait for everybody there instead of continue with the hike. Instead, I decided to follow to the Buddhist master who was at the head of the hike and continued. To my amazing delight we reached a spot where not only we could smell the blooming flowers and see the amazing sun reflecting on the ocean, but also there we were surrounded by refreshing waterfalls. Then, I thought wow!!! If I had not continued, I would have missed all these even better place.
Some times in life we get enchanted by what life has offered us that we may not be willing to let life continue unfolding as it must. Some times we get so attach to the things we like that we want to hold them for ever particularly when we have not had anything as good before. But if we let life guide us through whatever steps it brings, we may be even more delighted than ever before. So I try to let “no resistance” be the motto. (Again remind me if I forget )
Another yet similar realization came to me yesterday during a hike, well was more a drive than a hike, but it had similar feelings as a hike. It had snowed in Santa Barbara, which is a very rare event. So in a moment of spontaneity, I started to drive towards the mountain to see the snow. Of course I have seen snowbefore, but the event is so exclusive here in SB, and the day was beautiful that I decided to reach the top of the mountain to see the snow first hand. I was alone and I was not sure where I was going, but the idea and the scenario kept me going with a big smile in my face from the adventure that I had embarked.
Then, the road started to get a little complicated, very very narrow, very wet and slippery. I saw a lot of people driving the same direction, but most of them had a four-wheeler and I had my car. So I decided that the experience was fun and that I already had enjoyed the trip and the beautiful scenario that far. So, I decided to turn around. I didn’t see much snow on the way, but it was for sure fun and an adventurous trip. I had discovered a cave that I have not seen before, and I had travelled in this small road that I have never driven before. So I was happy and satisfied with the adventure even though I have not reached my desire goal: the top of the hill and the snow.
As I was turning my car to go back the same narrow path that I came from, I saw a four-wheeler truck with tons of snow on top. I realized that I must be close enough to the snow, so, I decided to keep going and see what happen. As I kept going up and up the hill, I kept seeing people who have found a nice spot at the side of the road and were taking pictures of the beautiful ocean view; however, very little snow was there. So I kept going up, and up, and up, and wondering where was I going, and where was the snow? The idea that it was close kept me going up the hill. Then all of the sudden I could see a gap in the hill, almost like a window to another dimension to another depth. There through that gap, I could see that there was larger layer of mountain that was hidden all the time. I thought I will see snow at the top of the mountain that I was driving, and I did see that, but the spectacular view of this magnificent layer of mountains behind was mesmerizing. The beauty, their power, their top FULL OF SNOW kept me smiling for a long time. The clouds on top made them even more beautiful. That was only half of the beauty because from that particular spot I could also see the magnificent sun reflecting on the amazing ocean. So a 360 view provided both a window to the beyond with the mountains cover in snow and the amazing ocean view.
Therefore, this experience again remind of my first hike. Simple letting life guide me eventhoug, I was not sure where I was going, I got this amaizing gift that was much better than what I thought I was looking for.
I stopped and enjoyed very much the view and the guidance I got to get me there. Very enriching, very fulfilling and satisfying experience, All the glories to the divine Mather Nature!! I realized that with my spontaneity, I have not charged my camera, so it aloud me to take only three pictures (see below).
After the amazing experience, I decided to come down the mountain. On the way down the hill, I saw so many people driving up the hill, and I was very tempted to enthusiastically scream at them saying “yes, keep going”, “it is amazing”. To those who had stopped before reaching the amazing 360 view, I wanted to tell them “keep going there is even better view up there”; “You can have it both the view you have now in one side, but also the magnificent mountains covered with the white snow on the other”. Even though my soul was screaming all this messages nothing came out of my mouth. I kept driving and observing all.
Then I stated to think about peoples reactions if I had told them all those things. Let’s say that I did started to tell them “go up there, your will see even more beauty”. Then, would they have listen to me?, would they have believed me?; would they even be interested in it or to want it? Would they to actually do it?
Then I realized that in life some times we want to help others see what we see, and experience what we experience, specially when it is so accessible to them. However, sometimes they don’t believe, or they are not ready, or they don’t want to see.
Then I felt thankful about all this amazing people that keeps pouring into my life and keep pointing “up” to me, in this case instead of up they are pointing “in” and keep telling me the same message LOVE is within you, you are love, Love is not a theory is an experience. Thank you to these masters, I am starting to feel this love more and more. I continue praying that my eyes are open to all these guides that only want me to experience the real “andanda” (pure bliss) that is eternal. They are trying to help me not to be inflicted by temporary happiness that I get so accustomed sometimes. Thank you MASTERS!!!! Keep giving me the guidance.
More and more, I have glimpses in my life of what they are all talking about. I can see through small window picks. These wonderful and beautiful experiences in my life keep reinforcing that I am going in the right direction. Osho said, that we have this body equipped with the best device. He explains that If the way our life is going is making us happy and this happiness keep incrementing, the air gets sweeter, lighter, fresher, then we are going in the right direction. If the way our life is going is making us unhappy and find that every day gets worst, then we are going on the wrong direction. The beauty of either of these events is that I can control those decisions. I can decide what to do, keep going in the right or wrong direction. At the end, most of the masters claim, both path lead you the same end, one may take longer and be less pleasant. That is why this devise within us is the best judge and we can choose the direction according to our own devise.
I know I am going in the right direction, because I am surrounded by a lot of love. People express their love to me in so many wonderful ways, that I feel indebted to their love, and to God. I only want to reciprocate with more of the same. I hope this inspires you to keep going, to be open, to look within and to share your experiences with the rest.
Jay Radhe!!!!
Gandhini dd
